My japanese name is 秋本 Akimoto (autumn book) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Sunday, October 09, 2005
What A Weekend
I was anticipating this weekend for the whole week. He asked me out. I hadn't had this feeling for quite a while - all excited and looking so much forward to it. Usually I'll be like, okay, I've a dinner-cum-movie date coming up. But this time, it was different. It felt something more. I guess I got too excited, so much so that I fell sick (don't ask me why, I've no idea). LOL. As the weekend drew nearer, I had a fever, sore throat, stuffy nose. Gosh, I can't have all these coming now. So off to the doc I went on Friday. Had quite an early night, to make sure I get enough rest for the date.
We had Jap food at a nice restaurant at Plaza Singapura. I bet the food was great, but I couldn't really taste well, after all those pill popping and a stuffy nose. Heh. Then we stayed on and chatted before we went for the movie - 40 Year-Old Virgin. Not a bad romantic comedy, I wonder why it wasn't advertised on the papers. I saw it featured on MSN Today, and so I clicked and had a look at the synopsis. Seems quite nice, indeed it was! I couldn't stop laughing, especially the ending, I think you would ever guess how it ended. I'm not telling, you got to go catch it and find out! Hee.
Then we had some time left still after the movie, so we went Swenson's and had ice cream - STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE! Yummy.. and we chatted, about almost anything - buddies, money, future, blah blah blah.. Till I started to stone, and we decided it was time to head home. LOL
All in all, it was wonderful outing, I really enjoyed it. Hope he did too. Somehow I can't help but wonder if I can be a good GF. Well yeah he said that to him, I'm a GF-to-be. It made me feel good about myself, that someone can appreciate me for who I am. 'Cos I never thought I would be good enough for anyone. It's this fear that one day he will start telling I should do this, I shouldn't do that, start picking on my bad points. The thought of it demoralizes me. Yeah you can say I'm thinking too much, but I'm really afraid history will repeat itself, that I'm not good enough. I'm so afraid of making mistakes that I didn't want to move. I was comfortable in my comfort zone.
It took me a lot courage to tell him that I'm clapping with he said it takes two hands to clap. I had so much fear and uncertainty - not about him, but more about myself. I'm setting such high standards for myself that sometimes I think they are so ridiculous. I guess the experinces I had had made me behave this way. Sorry. Then again, I hope he doesn't make assumptions when I said I'm clapping. It only means that we are seeing each other and we are playing our part to make things work. We are still not an item okay. Not officially. I don't want the silence-means-consent thingy to happen again. 'Cos either one of us can rebutt one day that we never were an item in the first place, since the question wasn't popped. Not that I am fussy about it, but I want to play on the safe side. I trust him enough that he won't let it happen, but more of myself. I'm not trying to tie myself down here, but I want myself to commit to it. So if anything were to happen, I bear the consequences. I want to learn to be responsible.
Well, I like the feeling about this relationship and hope it slowly develops further. Right moment, right place, right person. Thank you Lord. Thank him too, for coming into my life.
-Ping'er-
I was anticipating this weekend for the whole week. He asked me out. I hadn't had this feeling for quite a while - all excited and looking so much forward to it. Usually I'll be like, okay, I've a dinner-cum-movie date coming up. But this time, it was different. It felt something more. I guess I got too excited, so much so that I fell sick (don't ask me why, I've no idea). LOL. As the weekend drew nearer, I had a fever, sore throat, stuffy nose. Gosh, I can't have all these coming now. So off to the doc I went on Friday. Had quite an early night, to make sure I get enough rest for the date.
We had Jap food at a nice restaurant at Plaza Singapura. I bet the food was great, but I couldn't really taste well, after all those pill popping and a stuffy nose. Heh. Then we stayed on and chatted before we went for the movie - 40 Year-Old Virgin. Not a bad romantic comedy, I wonder why it wasn't advertised on the papers. I saw it featured on MSN Today, and so I clicked and had a look at the synopsis. Seems quite nice, indeed it was! I couldn't stop laughing, especially the ending, I think you would ever guess how it ended. I'm not telling, you got to go catch it and find out! Hee.
Then we had some time left still after the movie, so we went Swenson's and had ice cream - STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE! Yummy.. and we chatted, about almost anything - buddies, money, future, blah blah blah.. Till I started to stone, and we decided it was time to head home. LOL
All in all, it was wonderful outing, I really enjoyed it. Hope he did too. Somehow I can't help but wonder if I can be a good GF. Well yeah he said that to him, I'm a GF-to-be. It made me feel good about myself, that someone can appreciate me for who I am. 'Cos I never thought I would be good enough for anyone. It's this fear that one day he will start telling I should do this, I shouldn't do that, start picking on my bad points. The thought of it demoralizes me. Yeah you can say I'm thinking too much, but I'm really afraid history will repeat itself, that I'm not good enough. I'm so afraid of making mistakes that I didn't want to move. I was comfortable in my comfort zone.
It took me a lot courage to tell him that I'm clapping with he said it takes two hands to clap. I had so much fear and uncertainty - not about him, but more about myself. I'm setting such high standards for myself that sometimes I think they are so ridiculous. I guess the experinces I had had made me behave this way. Sorry. Then again, I hope he doesn't make assumptions when I said I'm clapping. It only means that we are seeing each other and we are playing our part to make things work. We are still not an item okay. Not officially. I don't want the silence-means-consent thingy to happen again. 'Cos either one of us can rebutt one day that we never were an item in the first place, since the question wasn't popped. Not that I am fussy about it, but I want to play on the safe side. I trust him enough that he won't let it happen, but more of myself. I'm not trying to tie myself down here, but I want myself to commit to it. So if anything were to happen, I bear the consequences. I want to learn to be responsible.
Well, I like the feeling about this relationship and hope it slowly develops further. Right moment, right place, right person. Thank you Lord. Thank him too, for coming into my life.
-Ping'er-
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Summary
Time now is 9.05am. It's one of the rare moments to see me up in front of the pc at this time. LOL. I would usually be still in dreamland now. Perhaps it has become a habit already - been up at about 7am everyday to prepare for work. Or perhaps I'm getting old? Researchers has it saying that the older you get, the lesser sleep you need. Well I've had 8hrs of sleep, should be sufficient ya? Alrite, enough of this sleepy crap.
Haven't blogged for about 2 month feels wierd. Somehow, I didn't know how to start - didn't feel like starting also. But nonetheless I think I should jot it down anyway.
Well, many things happened in these couple of months. I had been so busy with events, one after another, that I couldn't rest properly. Been working for 4 full Saturdays consecutively. Super unlucky that the events all fall on the weekends that I was suppose to be off schedule! SO, I decided to take leave for this Saturday (yesterday), when I was suppose to work. And I stay home and zzz. Well not the whole day, I went out for a while in the afternoon. I feel rather refreshed, although there is still an itsy bitsy bit of after-event exhaustion around. Heh.
Oh yes! How can I forget this matter. Just two weeks ago, I went to watch Quidam! It was a good performance, partly because it is my first time watching such performance. My mouth simply couldn't shut tight. I was so amazed at the stuns they make! They must have trained real hard.. Too bad I missed the opening, which suppose to start the storyline kicking, ended up didn't understand the whole performance. But the stuns were fantastic enough.
Not forgetting that I met up with Mabel for dinner after that. As usual, we talked non-stop, updating each other with what's happening in our lives. I'm glad our topic is no longer Joe. Well, can tell she is all grown up now. Always thought that she is the little girl and I'm the big sister, giving her advices. This time round, I learnt many things from her. Quite surprised, but I'm glad. 'Cos I believe we can learn from anyone of any age.
Then after dinner I met up with Yingtong, Biying and Weihao to watch The Brother's Grimm. Not a bad film. Honestly I would have enjoyed it if not for the fact that I was feeling exhausted for the day and couldn't really concentrate. The film ended at 3am...
It was a short but pleasant reunion, with Biying especially. Well, she is still the same old Biying I know, nothing much changed. But going out with them is rather uncomfortable - they were all giants and I'm the only elf. All so tall! Biying is the shortest among the 3 - 1.7m! Not to mention Yingtong. *Haha* Goodness. I'm still getting use to the difference, 'cos these few years I haven't had friends of such height. But height isn't a problem ya. I enjoyed their company anyway.
And yes, the FLOWERS! Two Mondays ago, a bouquet of flowers was delivered to my office. At first when my colleague Priscilla came to my desk and ask me to sign the delivery order, I thought, 'Why me, can't you sign it too?' Then she said it was for me, so I went out to take a look. What a pleasant surprise! A bouquet of pink Geras (is that how you spell it?), which look like sunflowers, only smaller. And so coincidentally, I was wearing a pink top that day. LOL. Well the flowers left my colleagues (even my boss!) questioning me who the sender was, why he gave me flowers, blah blah blah... But my lips were shut tight. Honestly, I didn't know the reason also, but it sure did brighten up my day. *Wide grin*
Hmm..it seems as though I'm trying to squeeze 2 months of things into one blog. Sorry friends, bear with it a little okay? I'll blog more now..
-Ping'er-
Time now is 9.05am. It's one of the rare moments to see me up in front of the pc at this time. LOL. I would usually be still in dreamland now. Perhaps it has become a habit already - been up at about 7am everyday to prepare for work. Or perhaps I'm getting old? Researchers has it saying that the older you get, the lesser sleep you need. Well I've had 8hrs of sleep, should be sufficient ya? Alrite, enough of this sleepy crap.
Haven't blogged for about 2 month feels wierd. Somehow, I didn't know how to start - didn't feel like starting also. But nonetheless I think I should jot it down anyway.
Well, many things happened in these couple of months. I had been so busy with events, one after another, that I couldn't rest properly. Been working for 4 full Saturdays consecutively. Super unlucky that the events all fall on the weekends that I was suppose to be off schedule! SO, I decided to take leave for this Saturday (yesterday), when I was suppose to work. And I stay home and zzz. Well not the whole day, I went out for a while in the afternoon. I feel rather refreshed, although there is still an itsy bitsy bit of after-event exhaustion around. Heh.
Oh yes! How can I forget this matter. Just two weeks ago, I went to watch Quidam! It was a good performance, partly because it is my first time watching such performance. My mouth simply couldn't shut tight. I was so amazed at the stuns they make! They must have trained real hard.. Too bad I missed the opening, which suppose to start the storyline kicking, ended up didn't understand the whole performance. But the stuns were fantastic enough.
Not forgetting that I met up with Mabel for dinner after that. As usual, we talked non-stop, updating each other with what's happening in our lives. I'm glad our topic is no longer Joe. Well, can tell she is all grown up now. Always thought that she is the little girl and I'm the big sister, giving her advices. This time round, I learnt many things from her. Quite surprised, but I'm glad. 'Cos I believe we can learn from anyone of any age.
Then after dinner I met up with Yingtong, Biying and Weihao to watch The Brother's Grimm. Not a bad film. Honestly I would have enjoyed it if not for the fact that I was feeling exhausted for the day and couldn't really concentrate. The film ended at 3am...
It was a short but pleasant reunion, with Biying especially. Well, she is still the same old Biying I know, nothing much changed. But going out with them is rather uncomfortable - they were all giants and I'm the only elf. All so tall! Biying is the shortest among the 3 - 1.7m! Not to mention Yingtong. *Haha* Goodness. I'm still getting use to the difference, 'cos these few years I haven't had friends of such height. But height isn't a problem ya. I enjoyed their company anyway.
And yes, the FLOWERS! Two Mondays ago, a bouquet of flowers was delivered to my office. At first when my colleague Priscilla came to my desk and ask me to sign the delivery order, I thought, 'Why me, can't you sign it too?' Then she said it was for me, so I went out to take a look. What a pleasant surprise! A bouquet of pink Geras (is that how you spell it?), which look like sunflowers, only smaller. And so coincidentally, I was wearing a pink top that day. LOL. Well the flowers left my colleagues (even my boss!) questioning me who the sender was, why he gave me flowers, blah blah blah... But my lips were shut tight. Honestly, I didn't know the reason also, but it sure did brighten up my day. *Wide grin*
Hmm..it seems as though I'm trying to squeeze 2 months of things into one blog. Sorry friends, bear with it a little okay? I'll blog more now..
-Ping'er-
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