*sigh* I'm slugging at home on my off day. Not the right thing to do! If only someone could ask me out, I'm too lazy and sick of asking people out. Phobic in fact. Actually I was hoping ANOTHER would ask me out one day, it's always me who took the initiative. For a meal or movie.. But i guess he's very busy. So busy that he hardly has time to sleep! I often wonder how people like him can TAHAN with just a few hours of sleep. Well I tried that before, but really couldn't take it after a month. My brain wouldn't operate properly! I was no better than a walking zombie. *haha*
Anyway I've come to figure out that perhaps ANOTHER (I think I'll call him KAWAII instead, ANOTHER sound so crude! *gee*) just treats me like a very close gal friend, who can chat rather well with him. For some reasons, I'm fond of him, but I don't really want to POSSESS him. (Although I do get an itsy bitsy jealous when other girls talk to him.. *oops* wrong attitude! Must change!) I enjoy talking to him, lightens my mood everytime. Perhaps it's his undoubtfully sincere smile. Always never fails to make me smile too! Well, what I hope for him now is that he's happy in what he's doing and who he's with. If he's happy, I'm happy. He'll always be my best buddy who'll always lend me his listening ear. One thing's for sure, if ever one day he needs me, I'll definitely be there for him. 'Cos he was once there for me when I was feeling the worst. He gave me hope. Thank you KAWAII, for everything.

-ping'er-