I miss him. Wonder if he feels the same way too. Every single I'm anticipating for his call, sms.. But none came. We're contacting each other lesser and lesser nowadays. It really saddens me that things are turning out this way. It seems like everything just died down.. Maybe I've been expecting too much. Or perhaps he's got tired of this whole thing. He's not at a losing end anyway. He still has someone to be there for him. What about me? I'm heart-broken, disheartened..

My temper is getting from bad to worse. Get so easily irritated, no patience. I wonder what went wrong. Is there something wrong with me? Have I not changed? Am I still the way I used to be? Lost my self-esteem. I'm not happy deep down. It seems I can't generate happiness from within anymore. Keep searching..don't even know what I'm searching for. So lost.. Help me..


-Ping'er-