Been watching the 9pm show on Channel 8 starring Zoe. I like Vincent Wong's role..Little Tortoise. Somehow it brought back memories..when I still was happily with Joe, when we haven't stepped into AM..when we were still normal and simple..doing things that a normal couple would do, going to places that a normal couple would go, saying things that a normal couple would say.. I miss those days..many times I wonder why things soured. Is this the way of Life? Have I taken him for granted? He was the one who made me feel so loved, so precious..made me learn to love myself and to love once more.. He was so conscious about my feelings, so anxious about me, so willing to change himself for the sake of me. Every little thing he does, it made me smile. Though there are times we had tiffs, he always gave in to me. Then he would surprise me with little gifts - hand-made ones - and by waiting for me at my place with a big sunflower or even pick me up from work.

But gradually, all these sweet little details were immortalised..became memories. So painful..still is. Who can take this pain away? Who can help me forget this pain? I'm not a happy person. How and where can I find my happiness, something which he gave me, but callously took away then after?? I still hate him, is it because I still feel for him? Hatred is also a feeling. Would I even bother so much if I didn't care? This agony..this irony..help me..


-Ping'er-