MAMBO NIGHT


It's been a while since I've gone to mambo. The feeling was great! Can never get enough of it. Only thing I guess was I drank a bit too much, heard things I didn't want to hear, saw things I didn't want to see. Got drunk..perhaps cos it'll stop my head from thinking so much, and let me say what I feel like saying deep down..


Saw him in his maroon car, with a girl. That scene was so familiar..it used to be me in the place of that girl. Everything he said before was lie..LIES! Called Pinky and told her about it. She offered to send me home, but I've already had someone to send me home. Well I guess what she said was true. I've been living in DENIAL. Cos I know if I were to face it, I'll die. I'm not happy deep down, but at least I try to put on a smile. I've never been happy since god knows when! I stopped believing that true love existed. Two persons stay together cos they need each other, sort of making use of each other huh? Only that the term LOVE is used..the whole meaning is changed.


I realise I talk alot when I'm drunk. And I say what I feel, my mind wasn't controlling my emotions. Probably that's why I like the high feeling. When I'm sad, I can cry out real hard. I feel better after that. Better than when I'm sober, I keep all these pain and sorrow within me.


Please let these pain and sorrow go away. Someone prove me wrong. Cos so many people have taken away the trust which I planted time and time again. Now I've no more trust for the purest and most innocent wonder of life - LOVE.


"The Voice Within" - Christina Aguilera



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