I feel so perplexed now.
So much thought in my head. My head is spinning.. Candy came back yesterday. She looked so different from before she left for Thailand! Well, she's in the same boat as me now, only that she's in a worse situation. But look at her now! So jovial, no one would have guess what had happened to her. This trip really changed her. She told me so much things, made me realised. I MUST MOVE ON. Not easy of course. Have to learn. Perhaps disappearing from here for a while is not a bad idea. Can open my mind and see things more clearly.
I'm now just too overwhelmed by the damn situation I'm in! I'm now planning. Planning to get away from here without letting others know, including my family. Well maybe I'll tell a few close friends. Definitely I won't go alone. Not that daring. I'll be going with Candy I guess..who knows. No actual plans yet. But I'm saving up.
Too many things happened these few months. It's like I'm being forced to grow up in a a short period of time. So many questions unanswered. Changes proved too much for me, but not impossible for me. I just have to take things easy and move on.