Many times I wonder, I did thing out of love. What about him? Did I stand a place in his heart? Do I STILL stand a place in his heart? It pains me so much when he left me just like that..no sound no picture.. And I couldn't do anything to save it. I wanted to make the whole relationship better than the previous one. I thought I found one who could stand by me..but I guess he didn't find his one in me.. I wonder if I'm stil his baobei.. Has he become so ruthless and aggressive that he forgot how to love, how to feel, how to be a normal human.. I love him with all my heart, despite knowing I might be hurt eventually, 'cos he made a difference in my life.

I guess I was too much clouded by unjust and pain that made me said things that hurt him, that made him shun away from me, as he may feel I'm a source of negativities, I make him feel even more negative and down.

I once hear a saying - "The one who is seen protecting others, is the one who need protection the most. The one who shows love and care to others, is the one need care and love the most." I find it rather true and logical.. I love to love and I love to care..for my love ones especially. Deep inside I just wish that my love and care can be reciprocated.. Think about it.

Makes no sense ya? Every paragraph isn't linked to the previous one. Well, it's just my flow of thoughts. Thoughts deep inside, making me perplex..


-Ping'er-