What a great time to fall sick. I had a very bad gastric attack, again. But this time it's worse. Doctor says if it doesnt get better, she suspect it may be stomach ulcer. I'm getting better after the medication, still in pain though, so much so that I can't stand straight. Sigh.. I haven't even done my Christmas shopping! I guess my friends will be getting belated x'mas gifts, please undertand ok! Heh..

I hope this year will pass quickly, 'cos it hadn't been really a good year for me, though it had be the most happening one for me. I really hope that things will get better.. I've so much thoughts now..geez. Can't put them into words. I hope he still reads my blog every now and then - shows that he still bothers about me?

I sort of got to know the reason why it all died off between us. I couldn't accept it initially, cried hard. Hated the world. But I guess if he wanted his way, nothing could have stopped him. He chose to succumb I guess. Devastated of course, but that was the choice he made. What I'm even more upset was, he didn't even give me a good explanation. He left me to throw all my tantrums, letting my thoughts run wild. But nevertheless, it's all the past. I hope we still can be friends though.

No more sweet messages, no more I love you..so what? Life still has to go on. I just hope for the best for him. I know things haven't been as good as he wanted. But press on ya, don't give up. You'll get what you deserve eventually.


p/s: It's not about making the RIGHT decision, but about making the decision RIGHT.


-Ping'er-